God, that sounds so very exciting! Are you literally planning to meet others there, guys you know only online yet? Bouncy bunny is bouncy indeed. :D
I'm sorry you're feeling that way, honestly. As I'm not a very dainty person myself (I'm not sure about US sizing (apart from being completely grotesque), but here in Germany my clothing is ranging from 42 to 46), I know that feeling of taking up too much space and the like. I think it got gradually better, starting years ago when my then-girlfriend (and now-wife) wheedled me into joining her at a sauna. And I had just started to dare to go to the public baths again... anyway, being confronted with so. many. different. naked bodies of all sizes and shapes definitely helped me there! My whole family is overweight (and neurotic), and my relationship with food is not easy either. Working out (at home via decent apps) helped me also to get a feeling for my body, and I think that's something you're doing already, aren't you? Be more patient with yourself! :)
Your plan to focus on enjoying yourself sounds perfect!! You can do this! ♥
Maybe it also helps to contact the airline company, and tell them about your worries beforehand? It's in their interest to offer you the best experience & service, and maybe they can fix your seat reservation in case the one beside you can be left empty, so you wouldn't have to worry about potentially irritating other passengers.
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I'm sorry you're feeling that way, honestly. As I'm not a very dainty person myself (I'm not sure about US sizing (apart from being completely grotesque), but here in Germany my clothing is ranging from 42 to 46), I know that feeling of taking up too much space and the like. I think it got gradually better, starting years ago when my then-girlfriend (and now-wife) wheedled me into joining her at a sauna. And I had just started to dare to go to the public baths again... anyway, being confronted with so. many. different. naked bodies of all sizes and shapes definitely helped me there! My whole family is overweight (and neurotic), and my relationship with food is not easy either. Working out (at home via decent apps) helped me also to get a feeling for my body, and I think that's something you're doing already, aren't you? Be more patient with yourself! :)
Your plan to focus on enjoying yourself sounds perfect!! You can do this! ♥
Maybe it also helps to contact the airline company, and tell them about your worries beforehand? It's in their interest to offer you the best experience & service, and maybe they can fix your seat reservation in case the one beside you can be left empty, so you wouldn't have to worry about potentially irritating other passengers.