such a smallBIG thing
May. 17th, 2026 01:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mickeymMegan is apparently not speaking to me. I don't know if it's for a limited time, or for the rest of time, or what. No idea. To know these things, she'd have to be asking me.
According to Donnie, who said to me, "don't tell her I said anything, because she'd be SO MAD", Megan has issues with me going back years. Also, apparently, she now feels that Matthew and I took advantage of her. I feel like that's coaching from Donnie, because until about six months ago, Megan had never said, ever, that she felt like we were taking advantage. Not to me, not to Matthew, nothing.
And now she's not speaking to me at all. The girl -- woman -- who used to say "I love you" every day when she left for work. Who would joke and laugh with me, and we'd wish each other a good night at bedtime. Now she can't get out of the room fast enough. In fact tonight, Matthew told me, Donnie called her (from the kitchen to their room), and he heard her say, "Kim's in the bathroom". And she popped out briefly, then back.
And while I know I should initiate the conversation, I don't want to. I'm a punching bag for them when they get angry at me, and I'm not willing to do that anymore. Enough's enough. We expect them to leave by the end of June (and when June gets a bit closer, we're going to tell them this. At least that's the plan.).
I'm going to miss them, sometimes. Megan lived with us for a decade, which is no small amount of time. My relationship with both of them (Donnie in particular, but both of them) is very complicated and complex. I'd love to have a relationship with them after they move out, but I'm not sure that's going to be possible.
And in the meantime, Donnie's talking about the trailer they're moving in to -- both of them, still in the same bedroom, even though they're broken up -- and how two of her male friends, upon hearing they'd broken up, said they would move in, help her with rent and so on. So Donnie talks about how they'll have four contracts on the lease, with each of them paying a quarter of the expenses. And she says that unironically. Like it's perfectly okay to plan that, while still not realizing that that's what WE tried to do with them.
End of June. I'm holding on to that, so very tightly.
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According to Donnie, who said to me, "don't tell her I said anything, because she'd be SO MAD", Megan has issues with me going back years. Also, apparently, she now feels that Matthew and I took advantage of her. I feel like that's coaching from Donnie, because until about six months ago, Megan had never said, ever, that she felt like we were taking advantage. Not to me, not to Matthew, nothing.
And now she's not speaking to me at all. The girl -- woman -- who used to say "I love you" every day when she left for work. Who would joke and laugh with me, and we'd wish each other a good night at bedtime. Now she can't get out of the room fast enough. In fact tonight, Matthew told me, Donnie called her (from the kitchen to their room), and he heard her say, "Kim's in the bathroom". And she popped out briefly, then back.
And while I know I should initiate the conversation, I don't want to. I'm a punching bag for them when they get angry at me, and I'm not willing to do that anymore. Enough's enough. We expect them to leave by the end of June (and when June gets a bit closer, we're going to tell them this. At least that's the plan.).
I'm going to miss them, sometimes. Megan lived with us for a decade, which is no small amount of time. My relationship with both of them (Donnie in particular, but both of them) is very complicated and complex. I'd love to have a relationship with them after they move out, but I'm not sure that's going to be possible.
And in the meantime, Donnie's talking about the trailer they're moving in to -- both of them, still in the same bedroom, even though they're broken up -- and how two of her male friends, upon hearing they'd broken up, said they would move in, help her with rent and so on. So Donnie talks about how they'll have four contracts on the lease, with each of them paying a quarter of the expenses. And she says that unironically. Like it's perfectly okay to plan that, while still not realizing that that's what WE tried to do with them.
End of June. I'm holding on to that, so very tightly.
x-posted at Livejournal and Dreamwidth; read/comment where you prefer
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