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Into the Void: Hope on the Stage edition
Mar. 14th, 2025 07:40 pmSo yesterday I took the train to New York City to attend the solo concert of jhope (of BTS). I spent the night and returned today.
I bought the ticket about a week before the boys' father lost his job, and I asked him (several times) if he wanted me to cancel my trip, and he said no. I had a lot of anxiety and guilt and regret (which is why I didn't mention it here).
But...
...it was a really good concert. I really enjoyed it. I got to hear him sing all the songs I love and do some of his iconic dances. I stayed at a tiny hotel in Brooklyn about 20 minutes walking from the arena. I walked back to my hotel after the concert. I did it all alone. I tried to make friends but I have come to the conclusion that I don't know how or I just can't. But that's okay.
It was worth it. The pandemic taught me not to wait for a better time to do anything. And some things I just have to do NOW despite my fears and regrets and social ineptitudes.
I bought the ticket about a week before the boys' father lost his job, and I asked him (several times) if he wanted me to cancel my trip, and he said no. I had a lot of anxiety and guilt and regret (which is why I didn't mention it here).
But...
...it was a really good concert. I really enjoyed it. I got to hear him sing all the songs I love and do some of his iconic dances. I stayed at a tiny hotel in Brooklyn about 20 minutes walking from the arena. I walked back to my hotel after the concert. I did it all alone. I tried to make friends but I have come to the conclusion that I don't know how or I just can't. But that's okay.
It was worth it. The pandemic taught me not to wait for a better time to do anything. And some things I just have to do NOW despite my fears and regrets and social ineptitudes.
