The State of the Ficcery: April 2020

[stonepicnicking_okapi]

What's ahead: May is the Merry Month of Masturbation! (mmom) I don't think I can manage 31 masturbating fics/ficlets. But here there may be drabbles.

Viewing: I ended up watching the film Knives Out and really liked it. It's so very, very rare that there are ever modern mystery films that are not adaptations of books, so you almost always know who did it. And this was a brand new story with actual clues and fair play and very old fashioned. It was lovely.

I also watched The Pale Horse, which, yeah, is one of the above adaptations; when I have a new set of library request next month, I am going to re-read it because I really don't think it went like that :/

I also re-watched Good Omens which always makes me happy. I love Crowley.

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April Word Count: 24,523

Writing: 3 fics for Dick or Treat [2 of which were also for my Jeeves bingo]

The Magic Flute

18 poems featuring 15 different poetic forms [12 of which were for the GYWO Yahtzee picture prompts]



My great disappointment is not making much progress on my Fandom for Oz fic. I have about 1k in a WIP file. I also wrote a prequel fic in the AU (the third of the Dick or Treat fics) but I'd like to be much, much further along (or, like, you know, done). I have a plot but no cool details. Yet.

My minor disappointment is not doing enough poetry reading for National Poetry Month. But I remind myself it is always Poetry Month in a poet's heart, so I will just keep going and damn the calendar.

Personal: Just a general sense of disappointment in myself. Still fat. Still slow and rather sloppy on many fronts. I only managed to wake up early 1 morning this month. I feel like so much progress was lost on that, and I haven't been able to reclaim it. I have thought about cutting (and I finally bought new supplies on Monday) but have not yet succumbed.

Minor is doing online learning in earnest now, so there's no more pressure to think up his curricula but increased pressure to get him to stay on task and keep up with the assignments and various meetings. But I took a walk with him one day and he admitted to being the victim of bullying (back in February) which I didn't know anything about. And I also found out that sometimes he just mouths the words in chorus (because he's tired of repeating the song?!). So I am discovering (every day, or so it seems) disturbing things I didn't know about him.

Minisculus is still a cutie. And the flat is clean. And I went to 3 stores on Monday (with mask and gloves on) and got supplies for at least 2 weeks (I hope).

Comments

[lunabee34]

*hugs*

It's disconcerting to find out things about our kids that we didn't know. I'm glad he's telling you now, though.

[stonepicnicking_okapi]

I suppose re: the bullying. It's about older boys on the bus, so not much I can do about it now. The chorus business I found out about by accident and he lied (twice!) to my face before he broke down and cried and told the final truth. So it wasn't really telling me as much as crumbling under interrogation. But we'll deal with it when things get back to normal.

[lunabee34]

*hugs*

[smallhobbit]

The trouble with the new way of living is that things like getting up early go by the board because they don't fit with the rest of life.

Sorry to hear about Minor's troubles, but glad he's been able to tell you. I fully sympathise with mouthing words - sometimes it feels like there's overkill and a need to move onto a different song.

[stonepicnicking_okapi]

I believe you, but I don't know why that should be. And it seems like every time I try to make progress (like 2 months worth of progress) there comes a pandemic and throws a hand grenade into my plans. And then I was re-starting (using Ramadan as the starting point) and the boys' father mentions the trial of Amazon Prime and I end up binging on mostly ridiculous viewing until 4 am two nights in a row (because I could! And I didn't want to waste our free trial!). Small and large, it seems that life has other plans or I'm just not strong willed enough to stick with it no matter what.

Hahahaha! The boys' father and I have never participated in a chorus so we don't know but I am going to mention to that tonight at dinner. He (the boys' father) and I were horrified and angry with Minor about not taking it seriously (it came out when his online assignment was to watch their Christmas performance and offer a thoughtful critique and Minor's first positive comment was 'I sang the whole time.') but perhaps we were too harsh. We have no point of reference. I just don't want him signing up for something extra just to get out of regular classes (which is what happens in their school's chorus).

[cuddyclothes]

At least Minor is sharing difficult topics with you. I'm not a parent, and the fact that he feels safe telling you about the bullying is a significant sign of trust, IMO.

HOW do you manage to write so much? I know I've remarked on this. And so much of it is SO good! I can barely crank out a paragraph.

[stonepicnicking_okapi]

It was a rare walk where he and I were together alone, so I should probably see that there are more of those to give him space to talk about things.

Ha! I suppose it's relative. I don't feel like I did as much as I should this month, but that's mainly stress about my auction fic.

[debriswoman]

Your writing is going well ( albeit in a distinctly !!!! direction) Wishing you well with Minor and troubles shared.

[stonepicnicking_okapi]

Thank you very much! Yes very !!!

[luthienberen]

Sorry to hear of your troubles, I wish you well and with Minor. The situation at present is enough to throw anyone off course, so I am sure you will find your way back to rising early once routine is better established again x

Congrats on writing so much - you really have achieved a lot and I admire how dedicated you are to putting words to ink!

[stonepicnicking_okapi]

Thank you very much!