Into the Void
Nov. 17th, 2023 01:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
stonepicnicking_okapiSo many little things.
1. Anxiety. Life is making me anxious to a degree that is new to me. I am finding shopping in stores to be overwhelming. The aisles are getting smaller and there are more people and so much STUFF and the music. It's not a fun experience. I feel claustrophobic.
The card reader at the grocery store was down. I tried to get cash at the ATM inside the grocery store. I couldn't. I had half a cart of groceries. Things got fixed. I finished my shopping. Then my debit card wouldn't work (I did use the Mastercard). Turns out trying to get money out of the ATM was suspicious and my bank froze my card after I tried it. I didn't know that until I got home. It was a big mess and about 90 minutes of confusion and hassle.
2. Minor agreed to pick up frozen pies for a classmate as part of a chorus fundraiser, but the boy hasn't come back to school and the chorus teacher didn't show up yesterday either. So we have 6 pies clogging up my freezer and refrigerator. Minor's pies have been distributed but there's no sign in sight that these other pies are going anywhere. So I have no freezer space whatsoever.
3. My hip hasn't recovered so my dreams of running the 5k completely are dashed. I have cried many times about this. I let it rest for 2 days, then trained again and the pain came back. I have tried rest and ice and lots of ibuprofen and stretching and exercises and nothing helps permanently. I get a day or two improvement and then the moment I try to run, it comes back. I am so disgusted with myself. I feel old and decrepit.
4. I lost the bet to Minor and bought stuff for Xmas cards. I have been so depressed about the race I just don't care. I want to make nice cards.
5. The building company randomly decided to change the locks yesterday on my apartment. I had to go get new keys.
6. The dryer did get fixed, and now it is very quiet.
7. I just feel out of control and anxious and at loose ends. I am trying to do gift-shopping (and making progress) but I just feel overwhelmed by life.
Edited to Add:
8. I did 6 cards with autumn themes as thank you for the people who bought pies from Minor, but I didn't take a photo so I don't have anything to post.
9. Soccer season is over. Minisculus' tournament was an hour away. The last game he made some mistakes which proved costly (they made him goalie !!) and his team didn't go to the final. It was a rough Sunday but I made a kind of friend in one of the soccer moms.
1. Anxiety. Life is making me anxious to a degree that is new to me. I am finding shopping in stores to be overwhelming. The aisles are getting smaller and there are more people and so much STUFF and the music. It's not a fun experience. I feel claustrophobic.
The card reader at the grocery store was down. I tried to get cash at the ATM inside the grocery store. I couldn't. I had half a cart of groceries. Things got fixed. I finished my shopping. Then my debit card wouldn't work (I did use the Mastercard). Turns out trying to get money out of the ATM was suspicious and my bank froze my card after I tried it. I didn't know that until I got home. It was a big mess and about 90 minutes of confusion and hassle.
2. Minor agreed to pick up frozen pies for a classmate as part of a chorus fundraiser, but the boy hasn't come back to school and the chorus teacher didn't show up yesterday either. So we have 6 pies clogging up my freezer and refrigerator. Minor's pies have been distributed but there's no sign in sight that these other pies are going anywhere. So I have no freezer space whatsoever.
3. My hip hasn't recovered so my dreams of running the 5k completely are dashed. I have cried many times about this. I let it rest for 2 days, then trained again and the pain came back. I have tried rest and ice and lots of ibuprofen and stretching and exercises and nothing helps permanently. I get a day or two improvement and then the moment I try to run, it comes back. I am so disgusted with myself. I feel old and decrepit.
4. I lost the bet to Minor and bought stuff for Xmas cards. I have been so depressed about the race I just don't care. I want to make nice cards.
5. The building company randomly decided to change the locks yesterday on my apartment. I had to go get new keys.
6. The dryer did get fixed, and now it is very quiet.
7. I just feel out of control and anxious and at loose ends. I am trying to do gift-shopping (and making progress) but I just feel overwhelmed by life.
Edited to Add:
8. I did 6 cards with autumn themes as thank you for the people who bought pies from Minor, but I didn't take a photo so I don't have anything to post.
9. Soccer season is over. Minisculus' tournament was an hour away. The last game he made some mistakes which proved costly (they made him goalie !!) and his team didn't go to the final. It was a rough Sunday but I made a kind of friend in one of the soccer moms.
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Date: 2023-11-18 04:10 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-11-18 05:55 pm (UTC)Thank you! Yes, I am excited. I have plenty of nice bits for cards.
Yeah, it sucks. I don't like it at all. but that's life (the 5k) I will do the best I can (and I have a very large ice pack for afterwards).
but I got the pies delivered last night so that's taken care of! It was a weird source of stress for me.
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Date: 2023-11-18 10:32 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-11-18 05:48 pm (UTC)Minor is overjoyed with winning! I got some Tim Holtz stuff and picked up a few things a Michael's too--so I am more than set for card making!!
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Date: 2023-11-18 04:17 pm (UTC)Christmas cards are a perfectly reasonable excuse for buying new materials - you want to enjoy making them.
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Date: 2023-11-18 05:43 pm (UTC)Yes, I didn't want to 'make do' with what I had.
In good news--I got the 6 pies delivered last night! Nothing like traipsing around neighbourhoods you don't know after dark with frozen pies under your arm and two kids trailing behind. My freezer is empty.
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Date: 2023-11-20 06:44 pm (UTC)Life is hell sometimes and the worst is when all the sh**y things come together.
Don´t make too many plans or expect too much in these times, just try your best and wait until its over.
I hope you´ll feel better soon!
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Date: 2023-11-20 07:36 pm (UTC)no subject
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