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Feb. 25th, 2025 01:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
stonepicnicking_okapi1. I don't want to be here. I just don't.
Last night the boys' father and I had a long talk about me re-entering the workforce after 10 years and the fear is so complete and so paralyzing. I don't even know where to start but he is thinking Uber driving.
After I got the kids off to school the morning, it took a Herculean effort to put clothes on and brush my teeth and go to the pharmacy to pick up Minor's epi pen (which we were out of, which was its own anxiety). But the fact is we probably won't have health insurance after Friday, so I need to get it in the next four days.
Really, the only thing keeping me going is my soap opera updates on Friday. A silly thing but it's all mine and I feel a sense of commitment to it, especially because it is winding down.
I am taking Minor to the allergist tomorrow and doing the food SHOPPING which has become a weekly nightmare. I know I chose this cage over and over and over for the last 10 years, but damn there really feels like no way out of it.
There is no point to me. I know some of you will be very kind and say there is a point to me, but it doesn't seem like there is, especially since Minor started SHAVING the other night (!!!) .
Last night the boys' father and I had a long talk about me re-entering the workforce after 10 years and the fear is so complete and so paralyzing. I don't even know where to start but he is thinking Uber driving.
After I got the kids off to school the morning, it took a Herculean effort to put clothes on and brush my teeth and go to the pharmacy to pick up Minor's epi pen (which we were out of, which was its own anxiety). But the fact is we probably won't have health insurance after Friday, so I need to get it in the next four days.
Really, the only thing keeping me going is my soap opera updates on Friday. A silly thing but it's all mine and I feel a sense of commitment to it, especially because it is winding down.
I am taking Minor to the allergist tomorrow and doing the food SHOPPING which has become a weekly nightmare. I know I chose this cage over and over and over for the last 10 years, but damn there really feels like no way out of it.
There is no point to me. I know some of you will be very kind and say there is a point to me, but it doesn't seem like there is, especially since Minor started SHAVING the other night (!!!) .
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